It’s Complicated…D Journey…

Hola..it’s sunday morning already & I didn’t slept a wink..got the panda looks stuck on my face however I don’t really mind cause I’m so anxious to visit my dearest mummy..

Anyway, while I was idling my way through the blog corners, I came upon a few relationships turn sour stories..guys dump gals, gals got fooled,scandalous,backstabbers etc..sigh..what a sad life we are leading in this world;

It doesn’t really affected me much in anyhow or anyway, I mean that’s life..what do you expect? bed of roses?..instead it makes me realised that not only I’m blessed with a huge family & my baby but I do have a circle of LOYAL friends; Friends who are more like sisters & brothers to me.

If I never say this before, Let me say it now..

"Thank you for being there, my friend". 

I was awaken by the sound of my voice..screaming, more like mourning..felt my pillow soaked with tears which streams down, hot on my perspiring face. I can still feels the chill of fear which had overwhelmed me. I can’t sleep..I fear recalling the same nightmare which is still strong in my mind right now..fear of losing someone I love so dearly whom I hold so close to my heart..I looked @ my clock; it’s 10min to 6am..almost dawn now..but I still can’t force myself to return to sleep; to afraid to close my tired eyes. It has been only 2hrs since I had fallen asleep & here I am with my eyes wide open..I’ve overexerted myself this week with work, school, trip to & fro hospital, housechores…it’s never gonna end..

I can’t help pondering upon these questions; tell me who wouldn’t if "What if the nightmare is true? What if there’s nothing I can do about it to change the situation? Do I still have the strength or will power to move on upon facing the ugly truth?"

Deep in my heart I know, the day of truth will finally catch up with me, in time, when I will lose my dearest & only…..

Mother..